2001-07-12 | 10:59 p.m.

I had the best time last night. After work I met up with A and a lad named Spike. We went to go see Baise Moi. French film. Graphic. Hardcore. Total female sexual rage. Plus it was banned in France so that was an incentive enough for me to see.

It was shocking, but I wasn't shocked. It's horrible for me to admit but I am completely desensitized to violence on film or TV. The sex was porn like with full: "dick-in-warm-hole-in-and-out action". Which was kinda gross to watch. The penis and pussy up close aren't the prettiest things to look at. And having a gun shoved up some man's ass and then having it fired inside of him isn't the nicest thing to see either while attemting to consume popcorn.

But it was gritty. And I'm not sure I can explain it. It's definitely not something to be taken lightly because there is so much graphic shit in there. But it's real and, I think interesting to watch.

After the movie we went to go eat at this quaint establishment with honest food. I mean it was good and simple and we were sitting outside and drinking chilled libations. It was just nice. We ate. We talked. We had a good laugh. Then J met us up and dined also. We all just sat back and talked some more and it was just nice. I haven't seen J in a while and it was good to play catch up. She looked amazing but then she always had a great body. We heard her stories and were entertained. As usual. We all seem to change and stay the same at the same time. It's all good. We all find out niches.

Came home and watched South Park where I watched Cartman get his pubes. Hysterically funny as usual and I cannot believe Matt Stone & Trey Parker come up with this stuff all the time. But they do. Don't know how. But they have this talent and they rock. And I love Eric Cartman so last night's episode was the cherry on top to a good day. Because it really was.

Woke up this morning to a pounding migraine. I could barely open my eyes so I stumbled to my phone where I dialed and prayed that the damn sound of the phone ringing wouldn't make me want to beat my head with a blunt instrument as I was feeling the need to do so. I called in sick. And granted I wasn't incredibly sick. I just had one hell of a migraine. But my boss is cool like that. She knows when I'm in pain. And I totally appreciate the fact that she's not a hard-ass and can understand that a person really can't do jackshit when they are suffering from really bad migraines. So big up to her. Because seriously the girl is cool.

On another note. Elon or Juan (whomever keeps signing my guestbook since yoru return email's keep popping up.) You both certainly find enough of your time to keep trying to bother me. I'm finding it amusing that your trying to push my buttons. If they aren't there how can you both even attempt to push? While I recognize I should just ignore you both I'm finding it amusing to see how silly you both have become. I was thinking of telling you both to sod off. But my pleasure comes from having you both keep signing the damn g-book and basically showing other people how incredibly juvenile the act is.

I think you both believe that I care. I don't honey's. I don't care if you guys like me or not. I really don't give a damn what you both think. I think my favourite moment so far has been the last signing. The one using "elaborate". Now why would anyone ask me to elaborate on a comment that YOU made?) I can't decide whether to laugh or cry. How incredibly sad for the both of you. I'm sure I'll get some feedback because your both whores for the spotlight but frankly...who's listening anymore? I'm not.

I finished off my day today by going to buy 3 of the 4 books I wanted to. Tomorrow I'll look to purchase the remaining one at the bookstore near work. That and maybe get a pedi during my lunch break or after work. I didn't manage to get my feet done today because I started to get dizzy again and I just came home. Although I did drop off and pick up my disposable camera and some of those pictures are just bad. But they won't be seen by anyone, so all is well.

Tomorrow I either go see a movie or go out with A and her ladies for drinks. Drinks sound good tonight but I'll see what's up by the time I walk out of the office tomorrow. Of course like you need to really twist my arm to sit somewhere sipping drinks with entertaining and intelligent people...c'mon now!

And that's that.



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