2002-05-04 | 12:05 p.m.

Hard and passionate and honest. It really is all about that fuck. With that kind of raw, potentially violent energy. The irony of it all is not lost on me what so ever. In my real world, being this way is just the way I like it. To be on the outside yet needed and included all the same. To see what other's can't and to count my blessings in regards to what I have. It's the little things in life that matter. It's not what the madness and chaos want to invoke upon you. and it was such small steps taken for such great pleasure.

Infinite possibilities, that thankfully aren't mine to hold. I wouldn't need that kind of drama right now. I already have enough.

I've been walking around a lot. Which was a pain in the beginning but now I feel a little bit bit better because I'm not huffing and puffing around everywhere when I walk. It's almost like a challenge now, can I walk there and not feel like a heart attack is waiting to happen? And more times than none I can and I feel great doing so. And with every step I think I'm doing better things for my body. Or at least I hope so.

I went to seeSpiderman with my coworker friend K. When we got there and entered the theatre toting our movie munchies we were given a survey to fill out after the movie. I was like, hmmmokay can do. But the punk in me won over and K and I pretty much were writing funny and sarcastic comments all over that survey. And then after watching the movie we were glad we had because there was a lot of eye rolling between us both and I yawned a lot. If your thinking of going to see it, please, I assure you - don't. It's not worth the $10 and you might as well wait for it to come to blockbuster because it feels like a horrid and cheesy TV movie. no wait, it couldn't even be a TV movie, more like straight to video movie. We're talking crappity mc'crapp just like that Godzilla movie a few years ago with Mathew Broderick. It was so aweful! and the special effects weren't even hat special. I mean some of the stuff you could clearly see was computerized and I felt a little bit jipped.

And I went to see the movie hoping it would be good. Not expecting anything but hoping it would be good. I'm a fan of Kirstin Dunst and I was hoping her high spirits might help ride the movie out. Yep, they didn't. I wanted to slap her and just send Tobey McGuire to a place where he can actually act, a kiddie porn movie. Honestly he looks ready to be in kiddie porn. And hi, can he talk any slower? Because hello I almost nodded off when he was in mid sentence. Jeebus!

After, we ended up at a store we found, down on the Korean street near Times Square. We went in again (since we had gone in at lunchtime) and looked around once more and ohhed and ahhed. It can't be helped though, there's stuff in there that's just too good to be true. I bought some stuff: Letter writing paper because I'm on a snail mail kick and honestly it just make me smile when I do. A little hanging thing for my cell phone. I couldn't help myself. She's Pucca and she's so damn cute! And a bag which is super practical and cute at the same time. Check out the little thing on the bag corner. I'm talking about sweetness here people! So I'm very happy about said purchases. Especially since you know I'm going to rock them like they should be rocked.

I woke up too early for a Saturday. I mean who wants to wake up at like 9am? No one! Especially on a frikken Saturday. But whatever, I'll just take a nap during the day. I'm not sure what I might be doing tonight but it looks like I might be doing something.

I should go run a few errands so I'm out for now.

Later...



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